Beach during the winter.

Today I went out with some friends and went around town and to the beach to take photos. I love going to the beach in the fall and winter, yes the beach is wonderful in the summer for its warm and not chilly during that time, but in the fall and winter months the beach takes on a new feeling and a sense of wonder. I love that I can stand on the beach and see birds, like some stray geese and a few seagulls still swimming about in the ice cold water and feel happy by watching them continue life during the coldest months of New England living. I love the solitariness of the empty beach, however cold it maybe, the fact that all I can hear and see is the waves crashing in onto the surprisingly bare beach, looking around at the rest of the snow covered land.

I'm glad that the college I chose to attend for the next three years is so close to the beach. I love the smell and the crisp air that flows in from the ocean. I just love the beach when its empty and utterly silent.

Intro to Photographic Media..or dance time.

This Wednesday I started my photography class, and it was fun to actually put my lovely camera to good use. We did a photo shoot using lights, music, and ourselves as models. The assignment was to use the edges of the picture and fragment the person. In the picture above you can see one of my photos of my friend Carly. :) Shes very energetic and loves when you play with her hair, and in using her as my model(along with my bestie Eli who's photos I don't have yet) jumped around and moved in different ways as I worked around them to get the photos that I wanted.
While I was doing that I was dancing around and acting like a fool and no one judged me and choose to join in, and most of these people I knew but am not close with and a few who I did not know. But at the end of the class I was having a blast. We had music blasting, random dance offs, and still got some good photographs out of it.
This is what I want to do with my life, photograph people having fun enjoying themselves. My goal is to one day work as a Rolling Stone(the magazine) photographer, photographing famous people and hear their stories and enjoy taking their photos. The number one person would have to be Johnny Depp, I love his work, and him :) haha.

all of the photographs on this blog are done by yours truly and one day I'll put up a post of just photos. :)

back in college :)

Saturday I turned the wonderful age of 19. It's a weird thing to think about that my childhood is finally behind me and it ended my wonderful break home for a month and a half. :) Now it is time for me to re-focus on college and spending time on my passion Photography. :)
  This semester I start working towards my major; Photography and my minor; Art History. I'm finally accepting that being my true smart self with actually get me some where in this life and its an amazing thing to realize. I'm so excited that I get to start with photography again, its so wonderful :)
Its nice to be doing something I know I'm good at ;)

This week I turn 19. :)

This Friday, the 21, I turn 19. :) It is my very last year as a teenager, and I must say it is a bit scary to leave my childhood behind me and embrace the 'grown up' world. Its also very exciting that for this birthday I am (still) home from college, I wouldn't of wanted to be away from home on this very exciting birthday, I was at boarding school for my 16th birthday[but that is a totally different post for another day]. Its also incredibly wonderful that my grandmother will be there for this birthday, for this time last year we were not sure how long she would be around.

I'm sad to say looking back my favorite birthday was my 12th birthday. It was the very last birthday that my great grandmother and my grandfather were both alive for, my grandpa lived till my 15th birthday. Those two people growing up were my best friend and my father figure, and to this day I know that they had a big part in helping me grow into the person who I am now.

My great grandmother, Rose, taught me the importance of embracing my creativity and imagination. I played my younger years away with her while imagining I was living in 1913 or I was 25 and going out to dinner with an old friend. I lived my entire youth waiting for 11 am and on school days my Fridays, so that I could go to my second house, conveniently place behind my home to see my very best friend.

My grandfather, John, was the only father figure that I had growing up. I didn't grow up in a traditional home and my father was my grandfather. He used to be the only one at times who could put me to sleep when I wouldn't for my mother, his belly was my favorite place to sleep.  He came to all my sporting events, took me to friends houses, sat through movies with me, took me to the Fryburg fair, and spent time with me. He was an amazing person, and showed me how a man should treat me.

These two people, and along with my mother and grandmother have helped make me me. And I am so very thankful that I was lucky enough to live these past 19 years with them behind me :)

Traveling.

               So as it is getting near the time of the year where I used to start packing my bags, start a count down and get my stuff ready for that plane flight over either the Atlantic or Pacific Ocean to some new country for me and some friends to explore. Starting at the age of 11 or 12 my mother took me on a cruise into the Bahamas where we stopped at one of the islands and my travel bug started. From then on our usual trip to Massachusettes seemed less exciting as it once was. So off to Canada in 7th grade, then in the fall of my freshman year in high school I signed up to go on the school trip to Japan. In 10th grade I took that 16 hour plane ride to Osaka Japan and I loved the culture and the experience. So for the the next three years of high school I traveled to; Germany, Greece, Italy, The Vatican City(it is its own country in a country), Ireland, Wales, England, and Scotland.
           This year my breaks don't fall with my old high school so the trip to Germany(the first time i only stayed for two nights and one day) was canceled for me. However next year I get the chance to go to either  Italy, Japan, or England and I am super excited :) :)

Happy New Year. :)

Over the past years I've had my share of hardships, like most in life. I've had very important family members taken from me, best friends leave or stick around, had my heart broken and tried my hardest but failed. I have taken all of this in stride, accepting help when it was necessary. But this past year everything has fell into place, I succeeded in getting into my top college, made it to one year with a boy, watch my Grandmother live past the sentence the cancer had given her, and even traveled to one more place.
I've learned after being dumped shortly before the New Year that I am strong as an individual, sure I like being in a relationship for I love to love people, but I don't need to be in one to be happy. I've learned that my New Years kiss doesn't have to be a boy it can be from a best friend on the cheek. I know right now that in my (almost) 19 years of life, I have a lot to give the world and I know that the right person for me is out there :) Now if only I could let go of some of my anxiety this year could be great :)